But it's relevant to me because I struggle with...stuff.
I wonder a lot of times if what I'm doing matters. I wonder if I'm "good enough" or "skilled enough" at (fill in the blank).
I'm not sure of myself, so I look to others for approval or validation. I figure if they don't see "it"...or if you don't see "it" (whatever "it" is) then "it" must not be in me. I must not have "it".
So I just continue on with life doing what I'm doing...and in that doing, I think that I am safe.
Anyway, the story is about Rich Mullins & actually the story is more about what he said than it is about him. He was a musician. He was a singer. He was a song writer. He loved Jesus.
The story goes something like...
A young musician came up to Rich one day and gave him a recording of some songs he had written. He asked Rich to listen to them and tell him what he thought of the songs. Rich told him, he wouldn't listen to the songs, but instead first responded with a question...
Did God tell you to do this? If He did, then it doesn't matter what I think.
That's the best I could do. Most likely not a word for word recap of what happened that day, but that was the gist.
The point is, it doesn't matter what anybody thinks. Whether they think you are the best thing EVER! Or the worst. All that matters is if God said to do it. If He said so, then do it.
I think my problem is that I don't want to ask God. Or maybe it's more that I don't want to wait for His answer...cause truth is sometimes I'm not sure what He is saying...I'm not sure if I hear Him correctly. So I look to you. Family, friends...strangers sometimes...you reading this blog even, for validation if what I am doing matters...if what I am doing is good.
But what this story reminds me of is that if God says, then do it. No matter how it ends up, all He wants is for me & you to listen...& do it. He'll take care of it being "good enough". He'll take care of it mattering. He'll take care of it making a difference.